Argos' Forest is finished... AND I have a story for Jindal... AND I now have a cause.

-deep breath-
In that order:


And. It's true; I have a story for 'dalu. (Yup, that's his nickname!) It involves him being a ghost rather than a weight watcher. (I hate the word deity so much.) And it's really complicated and kind of still undeveloped, so I can't really describe it, but... I'm so excited.

And! I have a cause now.
Let me explain. For a while I have been lamenting the fact that I'm kind of... selfabsorbedandcauseless. Like there was nothing that I've ever been like, "I want to give my heart to that." (excessive misuse of "like," there.)
But today I found something I think I can really... be part of. Here's how it happened.
I update my twitter during my free period. (Bad WOI!) And recently I've started looking at the new LOLcats too. (REALLY bad WOI!) And today I spotted an ad for the Smile Train. (On i can has cheezburger, yes. Random, yes.) (Can we perhaps stop with the parenthetical asides?)
Why haven't I ever thought of this before? I had a cleft lip and palette when I was born. I've benefitted from these surgeries. (Though not from ST, because the US is lovely&advanced.) (Excuse me, parentheses?!)
So that was on my mind. And I've mentioned this a few times in the past, I think, but God likes coincidences. At Esther's Circle tonight, I was doing the whole mental, I know God wants me to use my talents and experiences for Him, but how? thing like I always do. And we were doing this affirmation thing, where we went around the table and commented on what gifts God had given us, and like five people commented on my smile. My smile! The one that took five billion surgeries. The one I've always been so insecure about. My cleft-lip smile.
Does God fix up little coincidences like this in everyone's life, or does He have something special planned for me? Either way, the way He lines things up to drive his point home never ceases to amaze me. He reminds me that even though i am such an imperfect child of His, He loves me.

Yesterday was family night, so.

Sorry about that. Yesterday we went to another church--not bad, very contemporary worship, but the pastor had mediocre public speaking skills--and I spent much of the afternoon fiddling with the keyboard. We have to play three songs for ItMC, you see, so I was playing "Theme from 'Baracolle.'" To my delight I found that this is that opera theme they play in Life is Beautiful. Sweet. Love that movie. I then went looking for some Zelda sheet music to see if I could find anything playable. Results were mixed. Nothing I could play. Oh, and I printed some for "Don't want you no More." That, ahaha, I won't be playing for at least a year. Ahahaha. Hahahaha. >:C
(Sorry. I just love that part where--first of all, you're finally off that horse, I swear I get worse at that part every time I do it--he's like laughing and then he's all notactuallyfunny.)

Today I discovered that someone called checkers has commented on my Attolia fanfiction. Had not noticed that. Checkers-san, if you're still around, I will certainly be lurking in that community and maybe even participate, if I can get up the courage. :) But I very much doubt that you're actually still here. XD; Ahem. Moving right along.

Econ was boring, English was all about Handmaid's Tale, freep involved writing the essay I would have written over the weekend if I hadn't left the instructions at school, band was normal. Overall school was lukewarm today. (Yes. Lukewarm.) After school I came home and did nothing, and then I went to Esther's Circle. We received a guide on how to pray. Which is good, because my prayer life is seriously inexistent.
Except...
It feels a teensy-tiny bit like a checklist. "Okay, I thought about that, next!" But without a guide I sorta just babble @ God, which is not exactly the point. At all. So please help me, God. (Feels a little fake to record it there; or maybe that's just me worrying. I can never tell.)

Least that I could do, in memory of you...

Well. So this morning in first period, I read a lot of Airborn, and then, as i wrote into my Gaia thread,

"For a brief bit I tried to get some description of T-II in, but when I went to find a picture of the Grand Staircase on google, the internet exploded. Yeah. That was kinda weird. (YGOA quote FTW?) And it happened repeatedly. You really need to stop doing that. (No, YOU do.) In any case I became distracted by looking at info for the game. DANGIT I just lost. And thats not the game I was talking about. I was talking about the Titanic: Adventure Out of Time video game. T______________T I missssssssss iiiiit. So much! T___T Give it back! (It was never yours.) (If it had been, I wouldn't have this problem, now would I?)"

Other than that... physics was mild, speech actually got kind of funny. Was talking with R.G. and R.B. (XD; we're like a trio...) at the beginning of class and we were talking about how pies would lead to world peace but then people would make Atomic Parsley and Mushroom Pies. (Mushroom for the clouds, parsley because R.B. has a program called "Parsley is atomically delicious.") Then at the end of the class, we were talking about putting masking tape on one's forehead to remind one to speak slowly during a speech, so we made up a bunch of raaandom answers to the question "What's that on your forehead?" It was very odd.

I feel slightly strange having random conversations like that with here-people. (XD Heeeeere people! Heeeere, people! Come'ere!) It'll be worse next year when I have to carry out senior year activities for a school that I have no attachment to whatsoever. I feel scorn for that school and will stubbornly continue to feel scorn. I am an LCC student. I will always be an LCC student. Which, of course, is utter nonsense.

Other than that... comp was fairly nice. We did not much. :D We watched some of Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe and I drew Aslan. Aslan is beautiful. Aslan is the reason lions used to be my favorite animals. Oh, and before that I drew L talking about being kicked to death by donkeys.
After school, I went to Esther's Circle, a girls' Bible study which I guess I haven't mentioned in here before. It was quite nice. And now here I am. Before I got access to this computer, I was rereading some old fanfictions in which I had characterized Near as almost-emotional. Which means that mode is sort of in my head right now..